Steveeee:]

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so, i ditched the possibility of relaunching any website for shodges.net or anywhere for that matter, and i have decided to make a custom template for my blog here on tumblr, I am working on it and when i’m finished i hope you stop by and check it out.
I plan on just using tumblr to host my blog and what little information i want on there that had been on my previous sites.

all i have to say, Designing for tumblr is a pain in the ass. really. their html is a little out there, but i like a challenge and i like Tumblr for the fact that i can even use custom html without banners and shit. 

As for me, I’m doing ok, same shit different day. I don’t like it here in Florida as I thought I would, infact im planing on visiting Jersey On June 17- July 1, come back down here for two more months and then likely I’m going to leave I’m not sure when, maybe late September.. maybe. Car needs tires, not like bad but soon, it’s a little rumbly but it kinda always has.. it annoys me.

Well, I appreciate everyone who has followed me on this tumblr blog, I do really thanks (:

 - Steve

In every meaning of the word

I’m so unhappy at this point of my life, I’m alone so alone in a struggle to find who I am and who I am supposed to become, I’m almost 23. And I’m alone. I’m always so anxious, so nervous and people pick up on it and don’t seem to want to be around me. I’m trying to be calm but I fail. I feel empty. Weightless. It really sucks.
#sadness

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I haven’t been myself lately, I Don’t know what being myself is anymore actually. Every week is just day to day. Nothing eventful nothing really to focus on. Days continue to pass and all I ask is how could I have done today better, I always feel defeated, I always try to put all my effort into making things right only to find out in the end that no matter how right they may seem, I still see something wrong. It kills me at night to feel no sense of self. I feel that almost everyone has a negative opinion about me, probably because I have that opinion about myself.

I am okay, no matter how horrible I am.